No more Media!!

I work with some of the best economists in the world. The economy is NOT in the toilet. People are still spending, the price of gas is down, the cost of food is down, the cost of housing is down, down, down...people have been bailed out that should not have been bailed out and are now debt free. I cannot take the media hype and all the stock market hysteria caused by the herd mentality anymore! Come on, are we not supposed to be more evolved than sheep going to slaughter?? Although I would never, ever, ever promote or endorse censorship, I definitely want to blow up my TV and would love to silence all the media hype.

When did I become my mother?

I guess I've noticed it over the past few years that yes indeed we DO become like our Mothers. I think it actually has crept up on me slowly, and despite trying to fight it, I think this is the first time that I've actually acknowledged it out loud and realized that it's not ALL a bad thing.

I realize now that her happy demeanour that I always thought was a facade really wasn't a facade--she really WAS happy. She had realized that happiness is a reflection inward and that you can chose to be happy no matter what circumstances surround you. I think I finally understand that and can practice it.

I always thought she was a coward. I now realize that she was picking her battles carefully and with very conscious effort.

I never understood her anxiety and how she worried endlessly about our well being--and now I understand that feeling of total panic when you cannot find a loved one to be assured that they are safe.

I do find myself becoming more and more like her, which freaks me out a bit, but I'm at peace with it and no longer fighting it. I cannot think of a better person to be as I grow older. People admire, respect, and genuinely like her. I can only hope people think that of me, or will...

musical chairs

A friend aptly named the continual reorganization and shuffles we have at my company "musical chairs." Indeed that is exactly about how much control I have over my career and assurance that I have a chair or position. Seems like about every 6 months someone plays music that we're all supposed to recognize and jump up to play the game. Last week I had a chair. Next week it appears that the game's outcome is already known, and alas again I will have a chair. Perhaps a different chair, but I am guaranteed that a chair will be reserved for me. This morning more news hit the fan as more mergers are announced, thus insuring that we will play this game hundreds more times before we are fully integrated with the new company. The music may change, the players may change, but one thing is for sure, we will always be fighting for a chair.